a little heartbroken

I'm feeling a little heartbroken this Christmas Eve.

We lost our grandma Billie today.

And even knowing everything I know about our Heavenly Father's plan, and how tough these last few months have been for her,  I am still just sad.

Sad that this woman is no longer in my world.

Sometimes its not until someone is gone that you realize what a huge part of your world they are.

She is a woman I will always look up to and will feel the void of her passing each day.

I wish I were with MY mom right now.

I wish I could try be there for her. Because the hole in her heart she described to me today I wish I could help mend. 

But for now, for this Christmas Eve, all I can do is be a little heartbroken because an incredible women who I love is no longer here.

We will miss you Florene Geniveve Berset Ausman

 But I know this Christmas will be your best ever.