When the sunshine leaves your home...

this is the only picture i have to document this post.

i am heartbroken this is the case. i want so badly for my little man to know that his nannie was there and how much she showed her love for us.

for ten days my mom was there by my side, in my house, holding my babe, and making everything run smooth as can be.

i knew it wouldn't last forever and had a ten day expiration date but when she left wednesday night i couldn't help but cry.

.all night.

when i woke up in the morning to no nate and no nannie in the other room it felt so quiet and lonely. she taught me the ropes well and truly helped me weather some hard nights and days. i had no idea how much i was going to need her going into this.

i will never forget the ten days i had her here to help with my sweet little turtle.

~now for you baby~

you should know....

nannie was by my side the entire day you tried to come home.

she was just outside the door when you finally came and was the first to hold you other than mom and dad.

she held and rocked you when mom would let you go.

she ohhd and ahhd at you everyday with mom.

she gave you your first bath at home.

she went on your first walk with you.

she drove you on your first outing (to target).

she was just outside the door when you had to go to the dr.

she fed and clothed the whole house.

most of all she loved you.

she loved dad.

she loved me.

we all miss her.

she took the sunshine with her.

i live to far away from my family. i'm doing fine and Nate helps a lot more now that nannie's gone.

but i sure miss the company and still live to far away.