bye bye baby

this is to be the preface post of a very long game of catch-up

and so:

we've just returned from a lovely trip to utah for the fourth and such. what a different pace of life it is by my family. and how crazy is a holiday weekend with a child and no husband? it was a lot of fun but i would be lying if i said i wasn't glad to be home. back in our space. back in our life.

our journey began with this.

brig's last nap in the family cradle before cass arrived to load it up to take back to utah

yes. me, cass, cleo, and brig drove to st george together.

we were pretty much pros... except every stop we made took at least 45 min? we're still really confused how that happened but i guess feeding and changing two babies, taking two doggies potty, and taking care of ones self takes about... um 45 minutes.

we made it to st george 12 hours later no worse for the wear.

and that was journey part I

now this... this makes me sad

but it's probably good that it was a "now or never" type of thing in returning it cause i think i may have kept brig next to my bed forever :)

i have absolutely loved having him 12 inches away from me when i sleep

these past two nights have been REALLY hard. 

i don't sleep.

partly because i'm afraid of my baby monitor (ever seen white noise?)

and partly because i'm afraid i won't get to him soon enough

but we've both survived two nights even if i'm the one not getting sleep

anyway... much more to come